everything's always okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end

well its been a while...since i've written in this here journal.

lotta things have happened since then.

single yet again.

i hate how i was single for 16 years of my life and was perfectly happy. and now i cant even handle one month being single UGH! lol.

and i hate that when i get a text im always hoping it's someone i know it isnt.

but i know that will pass......ugh i hope sooner than later

-jackie

since school started i have been trying to fix a broken friendship that i truly miss having....but it's jez that what happen over the summer really hurt me and it hurts even more to know she didnt even notice what she did would hurt me....what do you do then? they want to be your friend again but how do you jez accecpt what they did and put it behind you? sometimes i feel like i'm making all this up in my head and i have no reason to be mad at her...sometimes i wonder if it was all my fault...and sometimes i dont even think it's worth it cuz we've lost so much time...i wasnt her good friend until high school especially last year but i've known her since elementary...well she knew me then lol...sad that almost a whole year was wasted, the very last one of its kind, and i myself am starting to wonder why????

this year christmas was completely the opposite of last year. how strange is it we had a white christmas last year and this year i went outside in flip flops and shorts...crazy...it's nut...cracker...lol all dumb...Neways

hopefully i am brave enough to finally patch things up and clear things up with people who used to be very close to me around the same time last year....i have 5 days left....

good grief this song brings back memories, a state of mind i was in at the time....

i have the most awesomness picture hanging in my room...it was a gift from my uncle to my little cousin, matthew but he didn't want it...why you ask?...because it was a drawing of a hand giving the finger...matthew is only in the 3rd grade which made it that much more funnier when he unwrapped it lol....

i'm so pathetic right now....and what the freak is up with it being so gosh darn hott in my room...i'm breaking a sweat just sitting here typing....

went to see JUST FRIENDS....funny shit....and good grief is that ryan a hunk a hunk of burning love....he is too sexy for his shirt....thats all the movie was missing....oh oh and there was this one part where i was thee only one in the theatre laughing....my cousins were telling me to shut the hell up....but it was so funny!

lol it was soooo funny....and it sucked cuz right after was the big romantic moment and i was still cracking up so i didn't get all up in that moment...lol but it was sooo funny.....

celi i'm not mad ya know it's all love.....my mommy is just always on the edge with me and sometimes it overwhelms me to the point where i just breakdown....but it's not her fault and sometimes i forget that....ya know what i want you to do on monday for me! ::wink wink:: yum yum

saturday i might be going to programming practice which sucks because i need to clean my room if i want to go out for christina's b-day......

so i think i need to sleep but i can't and that's why i'm so pathetic....GOOD GRIEF! i need to leave this be....not care NEmore......

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haha as you can see....my destination was california....'sep for of course a lil pit stop at VEGAS!

i hate that i am starting to skip school like i used to the end of last school year AND IT'S ONLY NOVEMBER!!!

english is officially my worst subject and it is all a racist load of shit....

i wish i had the asian persuasion like ying! jk

i cannot skip anymore....

but i know i'm gonna have to

hey i got a new fone....picture.....fone.....and there it is on my icon!
don't be hating....

i miss my old fone....
:(
i miss my old ringers cuz these new techno electric piano ringers are SHIT!
NEone know any good websites that actually have FREE ringers. FREE!

haven't been on the internet in 3 WHOLE DAYS....i think.....MY LIFE HAS BEEN INSANE WITHOUT TELLING livejournal MY PROBLEMS.

senior walk was so sad...yet....it didn't mean as much as it would have if it were to have REALLY been the LAST game of the season....dang tasb....what really made me cry was realizing how different or weaker some of my friendships are now or how some don't even exist anymore ::tear::

but then again other friendships are so much stronger....and thats flipping sweet....LET'S JUST ALL GO TO PAN AM!!! TOGETHER!!!

"....AND SHE SHOWED ME HER BOOBIES AND I LIKED THEM TO!"
"That's nonsense...I INVENTED ELECTRICY...ben franklin is DA DEVIL!"

i miss.....junior year.....so.....much....them were happy times that there was....

heard that during the amazing race. thought it was funny.

got honor roll bitches for i think the first time in my entire high school career. isn't that flippin sweet. well i'll tell you what is, THE MONEY I GOT FOR MY A'S BRAHAHA.....BIG LOTS SHOPPING SPREE WHOOO!

dude i wish that john mayer could sing to me..mmmm he is so yummy...i'm watching the music video "your body is a wonderland" that voice is so sexy...

got a lunch pass oh oh i'm going to tasb OMG it better be fun...i got so many ideas in my head that hopefully we will put into action ha...HA! lol pinche steph has done this before lol...it will be fun trust me steph. haha you best watch your back king killa style.

celi your lil sister is so freakin cute i could just put her in the microwave for 2 and a half minutes and eat her alive...her lil voice awww que cute. haha but if i heard that voice in the middle of the night..."celi come out and play" whooo i would throw her across the room lol...scary!!

peace & love ya'll